After a string of surprise parties and dinners given by family and friends, I am now back to reality and face the fact that I am 40. It seemed just like yesterday when I turned 30 and I told myself “Oh I still have a long way to go ’til I turn 40.” Well, that time has come. I was hoping I could be in my 30’s a little while longer but time couldn’t be stalled.
As with everyone else turning 40, I was asked the question “How does it feel to be 40?”
Well, first, let me tell you how I don’t feel. I don’t feel old. When I was a lot younger, I thought that women in their 40’s were really old. But now that i’m there, aside from the laugh lines and the occasional body aches here and there :D, I feel as youthful as ever. I think that youthfulness is majorly an attitude of the mind, than the condition of the body. I don’t feel like I’ve wasted the first half of my life. I didn’t wake up and say “Where did all the time go?” The last 40 years was packed with memories, opportunities and bitter and sweet experiences that God, in His love and sovereignty, worked out for my good. I don’t feel anxious about the future. Yes there are uncertainties but my confidence is in my God. I know that my lot is secure.
How do I feel at 40?
I FEEL GRATEFUL. Grateful that God found me. Grateful for my husband and four children. Grateful for my family. Grateful for my church. Grateful for my friends. I am grateful for the unconditional love these people have shown me. Thank you for all the laughter and tears we’ve shared together! It’s been quite a journey going through life with all of you! I am grateful for how God has used me to impart what I have learned from my own experiences to equip and empower women, single or married. Really, I don’t deserve anything I have now. Everything I have is grace and favor from God.
I FEEL EXCITED. I am looking forward to the next four or five more decades of experiencing the goodness of God in my life! I am excited about growing old with my husband and seeing my children grow up in the will of God! I am excited to grow old with my friends and see how each one will move from one season to the next. I am excited for all the doors God will open for me and my family! I am excited to see the fulfillment of God’s promises in my life! I am excited to walk this life with my God!
Psalm 92: 12-15
12 The righteous will flourish like a palm tree,
they will grow like a cedar of Lebanon;
13 planted in the house of the LORD,
they will flourish in the courts of our God.
14 They will still bear fruit in old age,
they will stay fresh and green,
15 proclaiming, “The LORD is upright;
he is my Rock, and there is no wickedness in him.”