Why I Worry

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When I was single,  I used to be a happy-go-lucky person. There were very few things that stressed me out. And then I got married, and had children, and that’s when I developed a new habit… the habit of worrying. From my first pregnancy to the last, it was the same. I had fearful thoughts that something wrong might happen to my baby. I would often wake up at night to check if my baby was still breathing. (Did you ever do this too?) I would keep reading from different resources and would end up more paranoid. Now that my kids are older, nothing has changed. When they get sick, when they’re out late, when they take a cab, when they attend a party… all the worst possibilities race through my mind and I wouldn’t be able to relax until I’m assured that they are safe and ok.  I know I don’t have […]

i got the title deed!

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It is such a thrilling feeling to see your name on a title deed! If I’m holding the title deed to something, it means I have the right to that property.  I may not have physical possession of the property yet, but the title deed is what tells me that it’s mine, I own it, and no one else can lay claim on it. Even if the car hasn’t been delivered to my garage yet, or the tenants haven’t vacated the house, but if the title deed has my name on it, it is just a matter of time that I will have the property in my hands. Pastor Paul Barker, in his book “Faith to Live By,” explains that in the verse “Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen (Hebrews 11:1),” the word “assurance” was derived from a Greek word that was used as […]

lessons from the past week

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As most of you might already know, my eldest son got dengue hemorrhagic fever (DHF) last week. At the onset of his fever, Nathan already told me that he felt this wasn’t just your ordinary flu. His headache and body pains were severe and his fever spiked up to 40 degrees. On the third day of fever, we took him to the hospital for a blood test. He was confirmed positive for dengue. His platelet count had started to go down too.  On the 6th day, his fever finally disappeared, and his platelet count took it’s lowest dip at 13,000 (the normal count is 150,000-400,000.) We were told that the next 24 to 72 hours would be critical because it was during this time that fluid would be leaking out of his blood vessels. They extracted blood every six hours, and watched out for shock, lung congestion and bleeding. DHF […]

i can’t do this on my own

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Just when things at home are peacful and you believe that all your training and discipline are paying off, one of your children commits an offense that catches you off guard and then you feel that you’re back to square one. Can you relate with me? Out of the blue, when you least expect it, that child does something that makes you question all your parenting efforts and ask yourself if he even understood a thing you’ve been teaching him all these years. A time like this is challenging but it’s also a good time to be reminded of some important things: 1. Our children need a Savior. Their tendency will always be towards sin unless they surrender their lives to Jesus. And even so, they will never be perfect. They are, like us, in a lifetime process of change and transformation. They will fall and make mistakes, that’s for […]

stepping out of the way

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Sometimes it seems the easiest thing to do is to give our child what he wants and make him happy. It is such a temptation to be the answer to our child’s wants and needs rather than teaching him to believe God for it or to work for it. When our daughter, Janina, got her new puppy, Briggie, it wasn’t without faith, hardwork and tears.  When she first brought up the idea of getting a Maltese, we told her that she will have to use her own savings. Not only that, we wanted her to be the one to look for one that is affordably priced. Paolo and I thought that this would be good training for her. We would pray with her for the puppy but we expected her to do all the legwork necessary. We saw Janina spending hours online and on the phone looking for a Maltese […]


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The last thing the party host said was “Goodbye everyone! And you can take all the balloons you want!”. Ryan immediately ran to the front and grabbed one of the 2 big balloon arrangements decorating the stage. The first thing that entered my mind was “Why in the world would you want to bring that home?” He got different kinds of stares from people as he walked across the party hall carrying that big balloon tower, that was at the very least twice his size. Some looked amused, some looked puzzled, but he couldn’t care less. All he thought was “I’m bringing these balloons home!” The balloons wouldn’t even fit in our car. Luckily, the party was just in our village so he actually walked home with it. And then as if that wasn’t enough, he came back to get the other balloon tower! Now his room is filled with […]

childlike faith

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Since late last year, our whole family has been praying to go for another vacation to the US. We cut down on trips and some expenses to start saving up. At the start of this year, I’ve been calling Delta Airlines to book our award flights from our mileage. I was hoping to get 3 free tickets from them so we would have to pay for just 3 tickets instead of 6. After 2 weeks of trying, there haven’t been any slots available. I started to feel discouraged and talked with the kids and proposed if we could just go to Hong Kong this year, and to the States next year to give us more time to save. Our kids reacted by saying “Where is your faith mom? God will provide for everything we need!” That was enough to shut me up. Two days after, as I was on the […]

Money from Heaven

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  We just finished dinner in the mall and our son Ryan wanted to buy some cotton candy. One bag cost P25.00. I knew I didn’t have enough cash anymore so I rummaged through my wallet and bag and came up with one 20 peso bill and 4 peso coins. I was short by P1.00. I asked Paolo if he had any coins in his pocket but just like me, he was broke. 😀 My poor Ryan, he was so looking forward to enjoying his cotton candy. We proposed for him to sing in front of people and maybe someone will throw in a few coins. Or he could give the saleslady at the cotton candy stall his most pitiful, heart-rending look and maybe she would take pity on him and accept his P24.00. Of course, he didn’t agree to do any of these. I told Nathan to do one […]

writing your eulogy

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This week was sobering. It made a lot of people stop and think about life. And about death. My dear friend, Maileen Hern, passed away at 38 years of age because of breast cancer. I have believed God for her complete healing since day 1 but God had another plan. And His will is always good, pleasing and perfect. So many people had so many nice things to say about Maileen. She inspired a lot of us to hold on in faith to God’s promises, to persevere in the midst of difficulty, to always focus our eyes on God. Her last words to her daughters were “Always be grateful” and “Always trust God.” Amidst her pain, she was still able to point her kids to God. The death of a close friend reminded me once again of the brevity of life. My time will come. (Hopefully later than sooner.) And […]